So I am in 4-B mining Merc in my Mack when i notice this usual star and what looks like a nova in the sky behind my ship. I have noticed this same star from several systems in the constellation lately. The nova looking nebula is new. I am curious.
Time to say goodbye
Today is the day we say goodbye to Liliana. So far I am holding together but as my thoughts drift to the memorial service about to begin the harder it is to stay focused enough to be the rock I need to be. I know my main purpose need to be as a strong support for John and Maria. While it breaks my heart to know the pain that they are going through, I must hold together for them.
I have admitted that my pain is not the same and the pain is not as bad for me. No one can truly understand the pain of losing a child except those who have lost one as well. I have been fortunate enough to have never had a loss like this myself. My children mean the world to me and when one of them is in hurting then I hurt as well.
I didn’t get to spend much time with Lili but I can’t get her beautiful face out of my mind. I see those big curious eyes looking intently at me trying to figure out the world she suddenly became a part of. She gave me a chance to see the world all anew from the innocent and naive eyes of a child. As an amateur scientist and astrophysicist I enjoyed learning things about our world that people didn’t not see. The eyes of a child see things that others do not. Those eyes are not blinded by expectation or anticipation. They see the world untainted and fresh. This can be disorientating but it is also liberating. It may leave one with a million questions but seeking the answers to those questions gives one a reason and purpose. Without questions to solve discoveries can not be made and advancements can not be accomplished. Einstein said that imagination is more important than knowledge. Who has a better imagination than a child who has a whole universe to learn about. That is powerful. and I have Lili to thank for giving me that gift of seeing the world from her eyes.
RIP Liliana Jean Donaldson
Born: 26 November 2014
Deceased: 28 December 2014
We love you Lili.
Lili
I apologize if my words are insufficient or convey the wrong intentions. I have been trying hard to come up with the words to express…
The loss Maria Taylor and John Donaldson have suffered is without a doubt one of the worst that a parent can have to live through. As a father I feel your pain even if I can only imagine it and I freely admit that my imagination can not come anywhere close to how you must feel. I will never forget my beautiful grand-daughter for as long as I live. Her time with us was short but her impact on our lives will last a lifetime.
The light in her eyes as she quiet studied and explored her new world brought joy to my heart. She was curious and I think she would have gone far.
Without a doubt she would have been proud to have the both of you as her parents. The love you gave her was evident to any that bothered to look.
You have my sympathies and support. I thank you for the gift of having had the chance to know Lili. I will always love her and you.
Average cost per driver mile increases
A study done shows that the average cost for a company to run a truck is up to $1.68/mile. According to other studies the average freight rate is $2.01/mile. That is a difference of $0.33/mile of profit.
Swift claims to only make $0.017/mile(1.7¢/mile) in profit. Hmm… Can you say bullshit on Swift?
I get paid about $1.347/mile (93.5¢/mile mileage + 41.2¢/mile Fuel Surcharge). Wow… Really Swift? I don’t know how much Target pays but I know they pay well. If they pay average that means Swift makes $0.663/mile ($1,989/week) off me. Razor thin margins you say? Again I call bullshit. Times like this I think about my brother’s offer to join him on the dark side and get my cookies from Schneider.
Some days
Some days it’s hard to remember why we do what we do….
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