My apologies for my drunken rambling last night. I  don’t handle holidays well. I was surprised to wake up and find I had over a dozen views. I switched my personal drama to private as it was intended so only I have to deal with it.

I know I haven’t posted anything public recently. Work keeps me too busy to play Eve and I don’t have an interesting life otherwise… Lol I should try posting some of the photos I have been taking but I’m still learning and they are not that good. But I guess it wouldn’t hurt either as they are not that bad.

It’s hard to figure out where to draw the line when it comes to posting on the internet. I haven’t posted in a while because a lot of my life is “private”. A lot of my romantic life especially. Especially with how turbulent that now ended relationship has been. Well it is probably safe enough to say that I will not be posting about that publically. There is no need or point to speaking about something that is painful to recall and besides is done now.

As far as work… Well I do the same run every day. My truck is still in the shop waiting for a new motor same as it has been for the last 6 weeks now. Peak season is winding down. I disagree with how things are being run but I am just a soldier not a general so it’s not my place to comment especially since I had been given the oppurtunity to be the general and I turned it down. I don’t have any interaction with any of my fellow drivers and I avoid the office personel for fear of being given more loads that I don’t really want. I am unique among owner operators that I know. I am not worried about getting the most miles possible. I just want enough to pay my bills and live comfortably and then I want to be able to have time to live life and not just spend my whole life working. All the money in the world does no good if there is no time do enjoy it with friends or family or at least enjoy it solo in pursuit of recreationaly activities that I enjoy.

Hmm…. Well to punctuate that last sentance, I don’t really have anything else to talk about…

I work. I sleep. Rinse and repeat. That is all there is to my life. Some have had other theories about what is involved in my life but honestly that is all there is.

Cruising along at 929 m/s orbiting at a range of 695 m from this cloud of Fullerite-C28. I love Black Hole systems. It’s a speed tankers and missile boat captains dream. The black hole in this system helps to increase velocities substantially. 58% increase in ship velocity puts my max burn at over 5,000 m/s with the MWD turned on.

I apologize if my words are insufficient or convey the wrong intentions. I have been trying hard to come up with the words to express…

The loss Maria Taylor and John Donaldson have suffered is without a doubt one of the worst that a parent can have to live through. As a father I feel your pain even if I can only imagine it and I freely admit that my imagination can not come anywhere close to how you must feel. I will never forget my beautiful grand-daughter for as long as I live. Her time with us was short but her impact on our lives will last a lifetime.

The light in her eyes as she quiet studied and explored her new world brought joy to my heart. She was curious and I think she would have gone far.

Without a doubt she would have been proud to have the both of you as her parents. The love you gave her was evident to any that  bothered to look.

You have my sympathies and support. I thank you for the gift of having had the chance to know Lili. I will always love her and you.